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Melting Heart

Hell found me. Unbearable heat surrounded my body. The flames seethed my skin and smoke filled my lungs, slowly suffocating me. Trapped with no escape, with no hope; I was going to burn alive.

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Sent home early from a business trip in London, my stomach fluttered with excitement to surprise James. Calling from the train, I instructed him to pick up a ‘present’ from the station around two o’clock. Upon seeing him, alarm bells rang loudly in my ears; something was deeply wrong. His tiring eyes, his light touch, his brief kiss, all of it, completely alien. A bump in the road, repeated in my head like a mantra; James and I are happy. Who am I trying to convince?

“What’s wrong?” I asked, after a prolonged and uncomfortable silence.

“Nothing,” he replied.

“Don’t lie to me James, I know when something is bothering you.”

He pulled the car to a stop.

“James?” I pressed.

He shouted suddenly, “You cheated on me!”

Shocked I questioned, “What are you talking about?”

“Sophie, she told me everything whilst you were away. She told me all about Alan and your secret life. How could you do this to me?”

Infuriated by his accusations, and the influence having come from my best friend, I began to raise my voice, “How could I do this to YOU?! How could you do this to ME?!”

James looked dumbfounded, “What?”

You’ve been cheating on me for months, with several of your ‘girl-friends’!” I corrected, “And you’ve had a crush on that Paige girl from work for almost a year! I’m not an idiot, I just hoped it would pass.”

Calmly lying he said, “I’ve no idea what you’re talking about,” which only angered me more, “Oh please, your act of innocence is insulting.” A wave of nausea hit me, “Why is Sophie involved in this?”

A knowing smirk twitched across his lips, “No reason, she’s involved in a lot of things you don’t know about.”

I stopped breathing. My palpitating heart pained my chest as his words drowned me in an ocean of betrayal. I cherished James, loved him beyond thought or reason, believing myself worthy of his affections. Yet he stood before me, playing the delicate strings of my heart with tainted fingers; delightfully amusing himself with the tale of his latest conquest, my best friend. Ten years of friendship and for what? The realisation became too much to bear, my relationship, my life, a mockery. Bile began to rise in my throat; I stepped out of the car, slamming the door in my wake. Crossing the road, I hailed a nearby black cab. With my gaze firmly locked ahead, I surrendered to my tears.


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Unable to fathom my grief, I arduously negotiated a sabbatical with my boss, packed some clothes and headed North. My favourite Uncle owned a small cottage in the remote seaside town of Dornoch, and agreed to let me stay there for the rest of Winter. The rather curious building lay on a hill about half a mile out of Dornoch, but a short walking distance from the beach. Painted white walls covered with decorative plants and flowers gave the cottage a dated look, along with its thatched roof. Inside, four adequately spaced rooms, each furnished with an old fashioned sentiment completed the image. Still, it was quite beautiful.

The crisp morning air, occasionally refreshing, left a cold and painfully dry sting in my chest. The wind blew harshly causing my muscles to seize. Keeping myself warm became a matter of layers as I duelled with the heating, unable to figure out how to work the fire. Having left my phone at home in a bid to cut off outside communication, I couldn’t call my Uncle to ask.

Despite the cold, it felt good to be alone. Although, putting my life into perspective seemed a daunting task, like a jigsaw puzzle with missing pieces. I thought about James with a strange sense of relief. A whirlwind of questions filled my mind, speculating over my previously clouded judgement. Remembering Sophie, the stain of her treachery still fresh, I struggled to feel surprised; a failed friendship I somehow expected. The clarity of hindsight being too much to bear, I donned my favourite purple coat, believing a brisk walk would cleanse my insipid thoughts.


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My face and hands were met with icy blows from the wind, making me regret my decision. Determined to put myself in high spirits I battled the frost towards the beach. The waves crept slowly toward my feet and peace greeted me with open arms, embracing me with calm serenity. Closing my eyes I inhaled the fresh salt air when something wet and furry pawed at my legs. Jumping at the disturbance, I looked down to see a black and white sheepdog panting, drooling and wagging it’s tail.

“Abbey, com!” A voice shouted.

Turning my head in the direction of the deep, husky voice I felt my heart stop as the most beautiful man approached me. Luscious brown, curly locks tousled around his face, revealing a hint of almond coloured eyes. His tall and muscular form walked gracefully toward me, leaving me breathless.

“Sorry aboot her,” he spoke with a thick Scottish accent, “A think she likes ye.”

Locked in a stare, I mindlessly stroked the dog’s soggy fur, “It’s fine,” I said, “She’s a lovely dog.”

“Yer from England a see, what are ye doin so far up North?” he asked.

I struggled with my words, still fixated by his eyes, “I… err… I’m… sabbatical! I’m on a sabbatical… from work. My Uncle owns a cottage not far from here.”

He nodded and I mimicked his actions. Catching a glimpse of his smile my cheeks burned red with embarrassment.

He interrupted the silence, “Well, wis nice meetin ye.”

“You too.” I managed.

I watched him walk away averting my gaze when he looked back. With flushing cheeks and a sinking stomach, I wondered where I had lost my voice. I pondered the thought a little longer, my heart performing pirouettes, then the angel returned, “Scuse me?”

“Yes,” I replied a little over zealous.

“Thare’s a Christmas party goin on at The Eagle the nite aboot nine. Would ye like tae come an meet som a the locals?” he asked sweetly.

“Sure, sounds great.” I said with nervous excitement.

He extended his arm, “The name’s Kirk.”

Butterflies stirred in the pit of my abdomen as I returned the gesture, “Megan.”

“See ye the nite then Megan.” He smiled.

Watching him walk away for the second time a dreaded interrogation took over, what am I going to wear?


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Having rummaged frantically through my suitcase, I despaired at the clothing carpeted floor, still undecided on an outfit. With a deep sigh, I flopped on the bed questioning the massacre I had committed on my wardrobe. Taking a bath seemed a better option.

Several kettles later I eased myself into the hot water letting the heat soothe my stresses. My mind traced over the catastrophe of the last few weeks, drawing outlines of images; my reasons for the overwhelming need to run away, the sudden abandonment of my family over the holidays and the complete stranger spellbinding me into a stutter. Insanity gushed through my veins, yet, I still wanted to attend the Christmas party thinking, who spends Christmas alone? Gathering some composure, I withdrew from my pensive bath, dressed in a red top with jeans and made for The Eagle.


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Warmth radiated throughout The Eagle, calling to the patrons still outside in the ice. Colourful Christmas decorations hung from the ceiling and a quaint little tree sat on the bar next to a burping Santa. The most welcoming sight, had to be the stone fire situated in the centre of the left wall, burning peacefully. Nothing like home, I reprieved. I approached the bar swiftly, ordering a cocktail, my nerves getting the better of me. Sitting on a high stool I began observing the people around me, watching them laugh and play party games, share stories with their families and in general, enjoy themselves, emphasising my unhappiness. I mulled over my cosmopolitan for a while longer and contemplated leaving when a voice crept up behind me, “Glad ye could make it,” Kirk said with a polite tone.

He then focused on the barman, “A malt whiskeh an w’ever the lady’s drinkin’.”

“Thank you,” I said shyly.

“Com an sit wit me an me friends, thay aw wanna meet ye.”

I stood shocked by this sudden invitation. Kirk took one stride, laced his fingers through mine and sauntered us both toward a table of similarly attractive and burly men. The intimacy of his touch felt strange yet comforting, then he let go. Did I want to hold his hand? Shaking myself from my reverie, I removed my coat to take a seat. Regardless of feeling completely ridiculous, I was determined to enjoy myself. At first, I found difficulty in understanding their thick Scottish accents, though, amusingly, the more cocktails I supped the more I understood. When the bell rang for last orders my mind buzzed merrily and Kirk offered to walk me home.

Arriving at my door, Kirk ceased talking, looking at me with a gentle smile. Eager to kill the silence I asked him how I might work my fire.

“Hiv ye tried turnin it on?” he joked.

Giggling, I pushed him lightly on the arm for teasing me, then he kissed me. A rush of sensations spiralled through my body, my knees weakened as Kirk glided his hands through my ebony hair and down to my waist, pulling me closer. His lips were moist and soft as they caressed my own. Is this truly happening? Confusion overwhelmed my thoughts, forcing me to stop, “Wow,” I gasped.

Unsure of my feelings I took a step away from him, ”Well, thanks for the lovely evening. Goodnight.”

Gazing into my eyes he smiled sweetly, “Gunite Megan.”


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Stumbling into my frozen living room, drunken witchcraft willed my fire to life. With the room slowly beginning to thaw, I grabbed a blanket to curl up on the couch with, safely assured I would remain warm.

I awoke suddenly feeling very hot and proceeded to remove my blanket. Briefly opening my eyes, a bow of light pierced me with an arrow of fear. Hell found me. Unbearable heat surrounded my body. The flames seethed my skin and smoke filled my lungs, slowly suffocating me. Trapped with no escape, with no hope; I was going to burn alive.

My eyes flashed to every corner, searching for a way a out. I found none. The fire grew bigger, devouring everything it touched. The Reaper swung his scythe impatiently. I ran for the kitchen door kicking through the flames, desperate for freedom when an explosion hurled me across the room and knocked me unconscious. The room temperature increased rapidly, the monstrous fire taking its fill. In the depths of my subconscious, sirens wailed and people screamed for help. I sleepily awaited death.


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The beeping sound of a heart monitor startled me awake. Surrounded by white clinical walls I knew I lay in a hospital bed. Relief washed over me, reminding me of the sun pouring through a cloudy day. A red haired woman dressed in baby blue plodded through the door; tears streaked my face.

“Dunny cry, Miss. Yur safe now. Doctor!”

Attempting to recall past events leading to medical attention, my thoughts lingered on a kiss. A deep, sensual kiss forcing my nervous system into submission. Kirk’s kiss. My body responded to his touch in unimaginable ways. Closing my eyes, I remembered the circular shape of his face, his light brown eyes, the stubble on his chin. I felt the soft whisper of his hand upon my face. Bewildered by his sudden appearance, I noticed he wore a Fire Fighter’s uniform. Kirk saved me? A cascade of emotions caressed my skin, showering me with knowledge. Kirk and I were soul mates.


The End

(Source: fanstory.com)

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…it still hurts.

Sometimes it feels like nothing, as though you never existed. Others, it comes in constant waves, each one more painful than the last. Is it possible to actually feel your heart breaking? Almost as if the muscle itself is tearing apart inside your chest? For me, it begins with breathlessness; life just stops flowing through. Then I feel a lump in my throat and my lungs tighten. Nausea overwhelms my stomach, so much that I vomit and yet it provides no release. My head rushes suddenly, the same as standing up too quickly only different. Different because I cannot emotionally ‘digest’ whatever caused this physical reaction. Finally, the tears. Secret tears that appear on the brim of my eye, gliding softly down my cheek. Each drop representing a vice deepening it’s grip on my heart. Is it possible to heal from such an awful experience? Time is said to be a great healer… perhaps to save face? Physical scars reflect improvement; emotional wounds however, remain palpable. Sometimes it feels like nothing, but you do exist. Whenever I think about you…

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Enchanter
Enchanter, our hearts are sore for thee, With longings for you that will never be. Faint are the souls that forever dwell, Unwilling to resist your evil spell. Your presence weaves magick that knows no bounds, Your lips speak poetry with hypnotic sounds. Your eyes cast lies of alluring fantasy, Your caress defines moments of ecstasy. Enchanter, we become but yearning shadows, Lost in an illusive mirage of innuendos. A never ending interlude of your lovers dream, Wandering endlessly without redeem.

Enchanter

Enchanter, our hearts are sore for thee,
With longings for you that will never be.
Faint are the souls that forever dwell,
Unwilling to resist your evil spell.

Your presence weaves magick that knows no bounds,
Your lips speak poetry with hypnotic sounds.
Your eyes cast lies of alluring fantasy,
Your caress defines moments of ecstasy.

Enchanter, we become but yearning shadows,
Lost in an illusive mirage of innuendos.
A never ending interlude of your lovers dream,
Wandering endlessly without redeem.

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In Sickness
Feeling, believing, Falling from grace. Starts choking, now smoking Losing my faith. Thinking, drinking, Dead in my place. Stopped breathing, now bleeding Choices I’ve made. Replaced, defaced, Left on your own. Got harboured, then discarded Now all alone. Apologised, sympathised, What I had reserved. Being deceived, both agreed Not what you deserved. Seeing you, touching you, Makes me feel alive, Abusing you, losing you Makes me die inside.

In Sickness

Feeling, believing,
Falling from grace.
Starts choking, now smoking
Losing my faith.

Thinking, drinking,
Dead in my place.
Stopped breathing, now bleeding
Choices I’ve made.

Replaced, defaced,
Left on your own.
Got harboured, then discarded
Now all alone.

Apologised, sympathised,
What I had reserved.
Being deceived, both agreed
Not what you deserved.

Seeing you, touching you,
Makes me feel alive,
Abusing you, losing you
Makes me die inside.

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